this is me

Things that we take for granted

2011-12-23T00:18:00.000-07:00

credit to soompi stock folder

Waking up in the morning, we take for granted that we have a new day, a chance for change.

Having food in your fridge, we take for granted that what we eat is just there.

Having a roof over your head, being able to go to school, having the luxury to eat out.

We often don't even realize that these things are not just there just because. It's not our given right to have all that we have but that we have been blessed.

Remembering all the things we take for granted will help us be thankful and pause to think before we whine about how hard life is at that moment.

oh my heavens, an update!

2011-11-19T03:18:00.000-07:00

I just remembered I have a blog.
Just a picture for today. More soon.

me was fixing hair >_<

Check them out~ woohoo ft Jay Park~ ^-^

2010-06-14T00:29:00.001-06:00

<a href="http://dumbfoundead.com/track/clouds-ft-jay-park-clara">Clouds ft. Jay Park & Clara by Dumbfoundead</a>

Check out DFD, JayPark or ClaraC on youtube! =D

Cinderella's sister

2010-04-17T15:39:00.003-06:00

T3T Yesung~~~ such a beautiful but depressing song!! T_______________T

credits : Pochipotato@youtube and allkpop.com

hold on to a good moment, it will not last

2010-03-16T20:04:00.001-06:00

whenever you have a good day, whatever the reason is, be it you reap the good fruits of studying hard, or seeing some success in a goal you wish to reach or maybe even you found some money you stashed away a year ago. hold on to it, savor that moment and remember it. because if you are me, it will be gone as soon as you start to realize it's there. someone will come and pull you back down to earth and tell you "there! go back being the ugly duckling, that suits you better". wow, i mean i thought i am use to it, but sometimes it comes so suddenly and i have kinda forgotten it for a few seconds already. it still seems to break a little part of me each time.. do you think that little part recovers or just disappears? can it all be broken apart till an empty shell remains? or can you slowly put all the pieces back together? but everytime you try to put pieces back together more little pieces come apart... it's just never ending, so why bother, just let them fall, maybe when it is all in little pieces and there nothing more to break, it will stop. they will stop and see there's nothing to break anymore. then maybe then.. maybe... that will be the time to put the pieces back together.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

2010-02-14T00:42:00.002-07:00

GONG XI FA CAI~~~ ^_^

A new chance at a "new" year celebration! According to the Lunar calendar! Look out what are your good luck color this year! Have a prosperous and most importantly healthy year of the Tiger!!!! And to end this very short post, lion dance! For good luck!!

*edit* omg. and yes~ i think i've been single too long! lol. forgot!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY~!! <3

new year's resolution

2010-01-13T23:45:00.000-07:00

happy new year! 13 days late wtf =_=;;
ahhh.. the fantastic time where everyone attempts to turn over a new leaf, convince themselves they will quit smoking, promise themselves they would save money this year or maybe like me try to lose weight and be healthy wtf.
the gyms are packed with i-want-to-lose-weight-this-year people. come february, it will go back to regular again. touchwood. omg.. why do we put ourselves through such agony!!! keep trying to convince myself this is the year........ is this the year? T_T among losing weight, my new year's resolution piled up with old undone/half done resolutions wtf.. sigh. what have i achieved in my lifetime of 22 years wtf T3T

new me~

2009-11-25T19:37:00.002-07:00

well. not new la. but a change! i know i exaggerate too much =_=;;
the cut is very cool. cant really see it in the pic but my stylist cut a section an inch of shorter than others so that it kinda frames my face instead of just straight up gradually longer at the front. did some highlights too so i wont look like i'm 15 years old XD
la la la~ enjoy~

not like really short right? hehe

i look really funny but shows hair nicely......

spam

2009-11-23T19:00:00.002-07:00

i have been commanded to write a new post so eggnogg is not the first post. wtf =_=;;so am just writing random random things..

as the 2 ppl that read my blog will see i tried to change some stuff and the skin to make it look all purty but it failed!!!! whenever i find a nice skin it never works!!!!

anyways, i watched paranormal activity and it is a stupid movie!!! i think i got even dizzier than i watched the blair witch project! yeah it's scary la like at some parts but i was so dizzy i didn't enjoy the movie at all. boooo!
paid like $12.50 for it. lol. i think even bubble boy was worth it in the cinema. wtf

tmr i am going to cut my hair. hope it turns out ok and i dont go back to looking like i'm 12 years old T_T might regret la but i need a change!! will post up when done.

anyways, i was browsing soompi and i saw a thread that says "Change face". haha. being me of course i clicked. turns out it's just a massage thing. i saw it before actually when i was at the vancouver airport.. this korean girl was massaging her face when waiting to board the flight.
i want it!!!!!!!!! am going to search ebay for it!!!
lol and this thread even shows like a nose clip! ahahhahah. to make you nose bridge higher! can you believe that! it's like perfect for me!!!

that's how.. it's suppose to make you face sharp

the real thing!

and the nose clip!!

where can i buy the face massage thingy?!?!?! suzie!!! did you see this in korea????? tell me!!!

enough spamming and of studying. well attempt to study la.

eggnogs are here

2009-10-12T12:46:00.000-06:00

have you tried eggnog?
for me i think it is a rather bizarre drink. people here try to use eggnogs in everything.. mind you there are even eggnog lattes. i mean it's ok.. i've learnt to drink it but when it is incorporated into desserts and drinks i tend to pass.
putting randomness aside.. it snowed for the first time in edmonton on thursday 8th Oct (at least from what i remembered). it is officially rather chalky outside.
it's thanksgiving long weekend and we get monday off! yay! but instead i have 3 lab reports due on tuesday and a lab quiz on wednesday. BOO! i am stuck indoors with my i-just-woke-up hair, fleece pjs and snacking on fatness while trying to finish up those crap. and getting distracted 3857439857349875 times to download the latest gossip girl episode, updating all my asian addictions and this blog. lol.
i shall go cook japanese curry later and force mother and brother to eat them. keke. shall post up picture if it is looking decent.
so people, enjoy turkey, be thankful and get ready for winter!

the colors of fall

2009-10-02T21:50:00.002-06:00

oh jolly joy,

We had our first below zero a few days ago. I have been spoiled by Malaysia's humid heat and what was left of summer in Edmonton. I am not not not looking forward to Jack Frost coming wtf T_T

The trees are almost naked, little clouds of breath form when you exhale in the wee hours, we had to harvest all our tomatoes and potatoes because...

WINTER IS COMING!! sigh.

Time for the blue blue season!

Soon there will be frosted windows, fuzzy caps and mittens, ear muffs and scarfs, fat fat comforters, and red red noses!

Let's all prepare for hibernation. =_=;;

human instinct

2009-09-26T21:29:00.002-06:00

most people know what they are doing most of the time.. no?

well, you pretty much understand yourself to know what you desire

humans, quite selfish beings would take what they yearn for even if it isn't theirs'

yes, there would be some lot that would disagree because they seem to be beings with brighter souls wtf

so, what if it was given to you? or what if you "found" it as in, it came to you

it's just right there! instinct tells you "OI! grab it and run DUH!"

finders keepers ain't it?

you keep it, enjoy the company of it, it is fond of you too

it was a miracle wasn't it, it fell right in front of you. you didn't steal it!

then the annoying part comes, your conscience decides to show up. since when did the bugger even exists? =_=;;

did it have an owner before??

.....................

~~no... maybe...~~
yes

sigh, despite how much you long for it, you should return it. not saying you must, but should.

but it was really want i wanted, really.

goodbye

o-m-g =_=;; why?

2009-09-15T15:10:00.001-06:00

i just received this today.

why oh why did someone take such a photo of me?!?!?!?!?! T3T

i look like an absolute retard. joy... =_="

retard at the midst of shisha. wtf.

HWAITING!! 加油~~

2009-09-11T21:20:00.001-06:00

I can do it!!!!!!!

yes?

... =3="

sigh.. at times like this.. fatty needs

or any form of yumminess will do!

my brain is rusty..

new sem is killing me..

i am physically and mentally lazy..

somebody save me..

if not kill me!

lol.. nice poem~~ maybe i can fall in artistic group wtf T_T

11:11 and more

2009-08-31T18:05:00.004-06:00

okay.. i have to admit that i am a pretty superstitious and maybe borderline paranoid sometimes. =_="

BUT seriously.. what does 11:11 mean?
Why do i care?
well, because I see it twice a day.. pretty much everyday.
Yes, i must be going crazy. haha.
Years ago when i was young and naive.. this stupid guy told me when you see 11:11 it means someone is thinking of you. cheesy idiot.
I didn't think much of it then.. but then one day when I told my friend the cheesy 11:11 story she said... "no! but my friend told me 11:11 is the same as Nov 11 which is 单身节 which translates if you will to "singletons day". LOL. so i was like whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttt????? me being absolutely pantang and paranoid about these things went mental.
After few months of believing into the latter story I stumbled on another psychic meaning of this so called 11:11. and it became more crazy.. soomething about a "higher consciousness in spirit" and some theory of synchronicity.
omg. =_=;;
i realize something about myself.. that i am so free and so sampat... why oh why am i so gullible to all these hocus pocus.
mental. =_="

anyhoos.. almost 4 months of abandoning this blog. haha. i am such a lazy bum. a quickie update~ went back to malaysia for five weeks. transferred to University of Alberta. and classes start day after tmr. eek.
and some pictures ^^

chocolatey goodness with the pretty ladies

pretty ar?

behold my sausage toes.. but the color was nice right? keke. me likey alot.

meet cute babies too. omg. so kawaii!!!!! i wanna keep them. haha

look at his eyebrow lol. almost a unibrow! haha

beeeeyootiful and cute baby candy

below are the reasons i am still fat. haha.

rambutans and king of fruits the durian

famous kampung chicken rice *drools*

oh my lord.. curry laksa and cendol

malay prawn noodle

bakuteh (herbal pork bones soup???)

my mum can eat this everyday. wantan mee (dumpling noodle)

char kuey tiao aka stir fry rice noodles

lui char (a traditional chinese dish)

hahhahahha.. my fatness has made my blog a food blog. but food was so nice back there. but i didnt gain any weight!!!! probably because it was so hot there!!!!

oh and my lovely darlings back home..

yo.. my grandma. yo yo yo. haha.

we will sing a concert together. haha.

i love this lovely girl!

my genie that i had for 13 years and counting!

the lovely shen

my awesome chee muis..

and since i'm uploading pictures. lol..

on princess jackie's birthday

bubble tea at calgary

*peace*

when was this???? o_O

yay.. mission accomplished. i can go m-i-a for several months now. lol.

who should i eat?

2009-04-11T21:55:00.000-06:00

love makes the world colorful!

2009-04-08T11:07:00.006-06:00

^_^

i was feeling quite down this morning but..

big bang says LOVE MAKES THE WORLD COLORFUL!!!

and

i was totally ROTFL and this pic made my day and i felt 200% better.

AHJUMMA JIYOUNG!

what can be worst than this? HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAH. ^O^

credit : leslie lei@soompi, seraphim@bbvipz, dcgd

april's fool

2009-04-01T22:21:00.004-06:00

actually just a random post.
it's wed. no need to wake up at 6 am tmr ^________^

just want to update on my list.
DOES ANYONE KNOW WHY I CAN'T USE STRIKEOUT ON MY i waaaant LIST?

anyways..
guess what i got?!?!??!?! kekekekekeke

Celebrating 10 years of friendship and pure chemistry with SHINHWA.

SHINHWA 10th anniversary concert DVD
2 DVDs and photobook
SHINHWA MUST GO ON!
why didn't i meet eric on the subway~? =_=;; wtf

oh and i went to calgary for a bit and got the cutest little thing for my ipod~~ ^_^

my reformed nano~~

cute ^^

i know. v random. i went for boxing class on monday. its wednesday.. and my arms and back hurts T_T like i can't even lift up my arms without going.. owieeeeee.. T_T but it was fun. lol. i didnt even feel tired after class.. but.. ouch.
anyways, finals till 24th. will be M.I.A.. AJA~~ HWAITING!!!!!!!!!

korea pt 3

2009-03-25T20:30:00.019-06:00

finally i know. i am suppose to be doing research for my 2000 words essay but there is no early class tmr so i shall be temporarily lazy.

i think i'm at day 9
i remembered it was either that day or the day before that me and suz were suppose to go ~~stalk kim hyun joong~~ go to fanmeeting to see kim hyunjoong (korean hottie). but neither of us were big enough fans to go wait outside a fanmeeting. so we passed and still went to lotte but not the lotte they were having fan meetings. haha.

lotte!!

and 5 billion people in the skating ring. what was the occasion??

i bought my mum a v. expensive winter jacket at 명동 myeongdong lotte. the prices in this famous department store is sky high. when my mum asked me how much it was, i did i quick discount in my head before i told her.. lol. and she still said it was expensive. my mum is not a fashionista.
then me and suz went for an adventure on a darn cold day. we searched for coffee prince! yes! the cafe! after hard work and nearly-botoxface-cuz-of-cold-wind.. we found it!

tadaa~~

yoon eun hye really drew this!!! i think la
tadaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

my heart shaped latte
i love this part of the cafe (there's a scene in the drama)
it was around christmas
the famous mural!!!
the last tadaaaaaaa~

time for some food pictures.. ahhaha. somebody ask me if i just went to korea to eat.. T_T yes that was the truth. LOL. we went to fatty barbeque~~ yummers!

fatty enjoying fatty meat!
v. cold interesting soju
tipsy suz.. nah.. just kidding. haha

we talked so much that night huh suz?!?! I MISS YOU!!!!!! T_T

and that night i went to i think where Kosney was and bought another huge luggage cuz i bought too much stuff and dragged it back to grandma's place. i was the main focus in the subway =_=;;
while we are on the subject..

where we get off everynight to go back to grandma's place

how artistic of suz!
suz made me do it..
no.. my secret dream of meeting someone famous didnt come true..
but i met hyunbin! he is so bright wtf =_=;;
and i look fugly to the extreme. aiyaya..
nothing beats this i guess
guess which is me? hehe. i love my shoes! i bought them there!

day 10
we went back to jecheon
and i bought my new found love~!!!!!! he is the most adorable thing in the world~~ and almost as tall as me! maybe not that tall. im not that short la

everyone.. this is alfred. alfred.. everyone..

well, the reason we went back is suz and i ran out of money. HAHA. and i bought too much things so we had to unload back home first. stayed for a night and ate fried chicken wtf. LOL. but i dont have fried chicken's photo!!!

day 11
we went to the famous.............. 찜질방 jimjilbang!!!!!!!!! it's the korean sauna/bathhouse.

tried to tie the goat towel but failed so used key bands =_=;;
in one of the cool silver (literal) rooms
BOO

hehe. cool huh
suz always takes candid pics of me.. =_=;;
cold noodle!!!

there was alot more places at the jimjilbang. but i decided after going into the mental super sauna room that i should put my camera in the locker. there was this sauna room that was like HOT. like seriously you cannot believe it hot. you think you know but you dont. haha. like after 30 seconds in there you can seriously literally see sweat droplets forming on your arm. me and suz's record in there was about 4 minutes i think. suz said that if you go in there then go into the cold room you boost your metabolism. and yes.. me and suz went in and out for about a dozen times. haha.
in the jimjilbang it's like what you see in dramas but more. there is pc room, comic book room, even mini arcade room! oh and there are gyms there too. dont misunderstand the whole place is not a sauna, they have a variety of sauna rooms with different themes like oxygen room ^^, cool silver room, herb sauna, dry stone sauna etc and one big living room thing at normal temperature with tvs and lotsa food to eat! you can stay 14 hours there (people sleep over) when you pay your entrance fee ranging 6000 to 14000 won. it's pretty cheap but you spend some money inside.. food! drinks.. random things. lol.
we spent about 6 hours there. it was so relaxing! i love the jimjilbang but there is just one thing that scares me there. PUBLIC BATH. yes. located beside the lockers, where people strip nakey and enter the public bath (men and women separate). after sauna and before going home.. you have to shower.. and to shower.. you have to shower at the public bath. there is no cubicle no nothing. a wide line of showers and some jaccuzzi. so in all nakedness, everyone showers together. lol sorry tmi? just wanted to explain the details. after public bath in korea, i could do one thing here.. which is swim at swimming pool in my swimsuit. i learnt something in public bath : take off your glasses and if you are blind without your glasses like me... you can tell yourself.. i cant see you.. you cant see me.. i cant see you.. you cant see me.. HHAHAHAHA. that's how i got through public bath. works well! i can go swim now and dont care about anything. haha cuz have to take off glasses! ^^

day 12
we were so tired that we woke up so late that day!!! after sauna you just feel like sleeping so much.
after we finally got our butts up, suz brought me to this underground massive shopping area. it's at the intersection of Kangnam subway line 3 고속 GoSok terminal and subway line 7 반포 BanPo exit 3 and 4. I dont know the name though.. suz refresh my memory again..
I bought alot of cheap stuff there!!! me and suz bought this kinda lacy dress for like $5 each! alot of great steals there! i bought cute aprons there for my mummy and me too ^^ not like i cook often. lol.
and dinner. haha. again with food. but this time it's really unique. sound weird but it was yummy! it was umm.. innards? lol. yes! but it was stuff with noodles and veggies.

i sacrifice this picture of me to show you the stuff intestine!
introducing chilli dipped in chilli paste
it not as spicy.. very interesting.

day 13
say goodbye to grandma and grandpa and went back to jecheon.

할머니 halmoni! the kindest ever!!

i actually found a pic of me eating fried chicken hahahaha. but no chicken just me with a face of omg-so-delicious!.. wtf.

did i mention i ate alot there?

day 14
second last day there!!!!!!!!
so many things to do! but we woke up late. haha. cuz what did we watch the night before? some weird horror movie.. very gory. haha. it was very disturbing. plus we watched it with like stereo system.
auntie was a kind soul that she knew how to handle my too much baggage problem. she said to ship it! so my kind huni suz dragged my luggage with me to the postoffice to ship it. i actually thought i had to fork out a fortune but nopes. it took me about $50 to ship it home in a month! was estatic! auntie is so smart!!!! suz! tell auntie she was the smartest!!!! ^^
then i said my farewell to auntie and uncle at the pharmacy. suz! they only thing i forgot to take pic of was your apartment and your parents' pharmacy! if not i could do free advertisement for them!!!! haha. i tried to look up from google but failed. HAHAHAHHA. jungang yakguk. lol.
thankyou 이모님 and 이모부님~~~~~
we had to take bus from jecheon to incheon and sat the bus for 4 hours. felt so sorry to suz that she had to take that with me!!! sorry huni!!!
we stayed one night at Sky ~~MOTEL~~ Hotel. It cost me $77.

was very dodgy place. haha. the receptionist ahjussi was so dodgy right suz?!

we sure eat alot =_=;;

craziness.. we are happy when we eat as u can see. LOL

LAST DAY T_T
My flight was at 12:25pm

suz u look so serious here!!

our last camwhoring session!!!! well, for now..

bye bye korea!!

sorry i took so long to post all these. blogging is very time consuming! but i really really am so grateful to suz and her family for taking me in for 2 weeks! you are the bestest! next time i'll just come to seoul for a couple of days just to shop!!! suz!! dont run away... ^^ hugs huni~!

hello friend

2009-03-25T19:38:00.004-06:00

you know when you find a new friend. and then if you guys click you will hang out alot to get to know each other better?
it is when the friendship really becomes real.. and at that moment and then on you see your friend differently. it's always a plus plus.. because you like your new found friend. never a minus minus. your friend looks cute when he/she smiles, laugh and do his/her distinctively unique funny face. you would never use the word unattractive or ugly on him/her. i've always got this theory because i always feel my friends are good looking in their own ways. no i dont mean ugly but adorable but like really.
then i read this article.. and it has this same theory but in a different perspective.. no.. it wasnt exactly revelation to me or an aha! moment, but helped a little.
it goes around from the side a little but it gets back to the point.
there's a saying that people's words can make you smile or tear you down. but there is another that even a stranger, i feel, can do to make your confidence plunge right down to the basement. it can make you doubt yourself or make you feel.. yes, invisible. that is other people's glances. of course, your friends and loved ones' can also make you feel loved and secure. yes, often you hear who cares what other people think.. but sometimes it's hard not to.
i'm getting off track here but back to friend becoming friend friend :) the article's point that shook me a little was that why cant we have that moment with ourselves? it's like you've seen yourselves in the mirror or in pictures a gazillion times but sometimes a little distant. of course i mean you know its you but just distant. or worst.. if you see yourself like the moment you decide you hate your ultimate enemy so bad they look bad. everything about them is bad.. ugly.. disgusting. of course, we dont see ourselves that way everyday, i dont think it's bearable but for the pms days(sorry guys), v.v.v.v.v.v. bad hair days, fat days, or just fml days.
what i'm saying is that when can you see yourselves in the eyes of your bestest friend? why is that your own glance to yourself in the mirror makes you feel worst?
because humans are never satisfied? lol. that's the only thing i can think of. the idealized version of you.. you are finding to see that.
ya ya ya.. you might say beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.. but what if the freaking beholder doesnt believe it's true? what would that mean?
The article ends with a saying: Who looks not with compassion sees not what the eyes of compassion sees. And maybe the next time you glance at yourself in the mirror remind yourself that, and maybe.. you summon enough compassion to let go of that critical gaze and catch a glimpse of yourself with the eyes of a friend.

my middle name means compassion. i need that compassion for myself!

credits : O magazine, Noelle Oxenhandler

invisible

2009-03-24T21:40:00.004-06:00

invisible

fat

ugly

stupid

lazy procrastinator

volcanic skin

pig like

hypocrite

emotional eater

~~horribly single~~

not that it matter cuz everything else rules over EVERYTHING

UGGGGGHHHHH!

why would i care since i'm invisible? but i still do..